Thank for your letter. ... In that year I ( = Russell) had double pneumonia in Peking and only one English nurse obainable. She wa s lady of great piety who told me when I was convalescent that she had great struggles with her conscience on the ground that she thought it her duty to let me die, although professional instinct proved too strong for this virtuous impulse.
Source: Dear Bertrand Russell; a selection of his correspondence with the general public, 1950 - 1968. Allen & Unwin, 1969.
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