I have imagined myself in turn a Liberal, a Socialist, or a Pacifist, but I have never been any of these things, in any profound sense. Always the sceptical intellect, when I have most wished it silent, has whispered doubts to me, has cut me off from the facile enthusiasms of others, and has transported me into a desolate solitude.
Source: The Autobiography of Bertrand Russell, v.2 chap. 1:The First War, 1968, pp.37-38.(= Allen and Unwin ed.)
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